Life on the Color Line: The True Story of a White Boy Who Discovered He WasBlack By Gregory Howard Williams. Plume (1996), 285 pages, $13.95 paperback
The Color of Water: A Black Man's Tribute to His White Mother By James McBride. Riverhead Books (1996), 297 pages, $12.95 paperback
Black, White, and Jewish: Autobiography of a Shifting Self By Rebecca Walker. Riverhead Books (2001), 323 pages, $23.95 hardcover
Divided to the Vein: A Journey into Race and Family By Scott Minerbrook. Harcourt Brace and Company (1996), 261 pages, $24.00 hardcover
When I was 18, I learned, quite belatedly, that myfather's brother had married a black woman. The wedding took place in 1958--theyear I was born, the year after my parents married. Instantly I knew that racismhad kept me from knowing my uncle (by then dead of a heart attack), my aunt, mycousins. Instantly I knew I would have to find them. But it was one thing todiscover that the deepest, most volatile division in the country ran rightthrough my family; actually crossing that divide to claim kinship was, for a longtime, too daunting for someone whose only experience with "diversity" was beingthe sole Jewish kid among her semirural Ohio high school's 2,300 students.
And so it wasn't until my thirties that I finally met my aunt andcousins. To my surprise, they treated me not just as a cousin but as a livingsymbol of racial reconciliation. Once we'd met, told stories, and comparedfeatures--we share a long jaw and sharp chin--I started to notice how arbitrarilyI'd sorted the world around me into "black" or "white." All around were blackpeople who looked related to me. White friends had color in their families ofblood or choice: a stepfather, a spouse, a sister-in-law, a dearest friend. Istarted to feel that every American whose family has been here more than a fewdecades is from a mixed-race family, that somewhere out there--however near orfar--we all have relatives of the "other" color. African Americans know this, ofcourse, often down to the name of at least one plantation owner in the familytree. But for a white girl in a color-bound world, this was news.
As it happened, the insight that was striking me so personally--that the colorline is drawn in shifting sand--would soon strike the culture. In the past fewyears, the headlines have been full of such things as the 2000 census'smix-and-match option; genetic evidence that Thomas Jefferson and Sally Hemings(his dead wife's half-sister and slave) left a widening delta of descendants; andthe ascending god Tiger Woods's refusal to reject his plural ethnicity. And since1995, a number of mixed-race memoirs have hit our shelves, opening discussion ofa new identity: biracial writers who have a black parent and a white one. Theseauthors grapple with the sense that they don't quite belong anywhere, that theyaren't fully claimed by either race. But their wide range of experiences revealshow deeply racial identity, like any identity, is affected not just by societybut also by family, character, time, and place.
For some reason, I expected to find that these memoirs had proliferatedbecause children born during and after the civil rights movement had come of ageand were telling their stories. I'm not sure why I had such a naive idea. Eversince Africans were first dragged onto this continent, Americans have beenwondering how to treat mixed-race babies. Until the Civil War, racial definitionsvaried dramatically by time, place, looks, and wealth. In New Orleans andCharleston, color codes were as complicated as those in Brazil or Jamaica today."Mulatto" was a census category as late as 1850. But racial openness slammed shutafter the Civil War, as segregation was substituted for slavery in defining anunderclass. By the end of the nineteenth century, "one drop" of African ancestrywas being legally treated as if it could spread like a drop of food dye in waterand turn its bearer (of whatever complexion) inescapably "colored." The Americanracial code was binary by the early twentieth century when Harlem Renaissancewriters like Nella Larsen and James Weldon Johnson took up the subject: You wereeither black or white. That either/or division was reified in the 1960s, as theblack-power movement declared "black" beautiful. Why not root for the club thatdid want you as a member?
The moment, then, to which these books testify is not the 1960s but the 1990s:our own MTV and Oprah and Eminem moment when it's again become possible toclaim a mixed-race heritage and to have "white" people listen. When JuliaJefferson Westerinen, a white woman, learned as an adult that she was descendedfrom Sally Hemings and Thomas Jefferson, she told NBC's Nightly News, "It's such an American thing to have a drop of this and a drop of that. I'm Scotch, Irish, English, French, Welsh, and black." From that point of view, these recently published biracial memoirs can be read as quintessentially American: stories of immigrants' children who don't quite belong, who must invent a new identity that their parents can't help them with and that leaves their parents behind. The added twist, of course, is black/white racism, which grew from the American original sin of slavery and thus is so much more intractably built into our culture than anti-immigrant bias. It's possible to read these books in historical order and see them as snapshots of American racial attitudes: from "passing" in the 1940s to the 1960s civil rights movements to 1990s roots research. Each memoir offers a slightly different angle from which to view the question of racial belonging, of who is claimed by whom.
"Passing" is that very American attempt to belong by escaping theweight of the past. "In the 1940s, everybody who could pass did pass," New YorkTimes writer Brent Staples recently reported being told, "but you had to bestrong." Strong because passing meant emigrating and leaving behind familiar andcomforting foods, family, habits, and language; as Staples repeatedly pointed outthis April in his W.E.B. Du Bois Lectures at Harvard University called"Excavating Race in Mongrel America," in African-American vernacular "passing"also means dying. And passing--both explicit and implicit--has its place inseveral of these memoirs.
Gregory Williams, recently named president of the City College of NewYork, was 10 years old when he got the news that his identity had been based ondeception. He had grown up white in segregated 1950s Virginia. Then his motherabsconded with her lover; his father, Buster, bankrupted himself throughalcoholism. On a Greyhound to his Indiana hometown, Buster told his two sons thatMiss Sallie, who'd once worked for them, was in fact Buster's mother and theboys' grandmother. Stunned, the boys objected that that couldn't be: Miss Salliewas "colored." Exactly, their father told them. Although they had been white inVirginia, when they got to Indiana--where Buster's origins were known--they wouldbe colored. When the younger boy started to cry, Buster promised they wouldn'tstay in Indiana for long: "We can still be white, but not in Muncie."
What do "white" and "black" mean if they're so mutable, so dependent on one'saddress? Quite a bit, it turns out. In the 1950s Muncie was a Klan town. Thecolor line ran along the railroad tracks: whites on one side, blacks on the otherwith no money or opportunities. What makes Williams's Life on the Color Line a riveting book, despite its workmanlike prose, is the author's straightforward look at how the color question intrudes into every corner of his life. The Caucasian-appearing boys ("quadroons" like Sally Hemings) fight black kids who attack them for being white and white kids who hate them for being black. Williams gets hostile stares from whites when he sits at the high school cafeteria's black table and when he goes downtown with his informal stepmother, Miss Dora, who probably saved the boys from starvation when she rescued them from their alcoholic grandmother's tar-papered shed. Teachers, coaches, and schoolmates threaten him if he even speaks to a "white" girl; if he dates a black girl, strangers jeer at and threaten the apparently interracial couple. "White" and "black" are revealed as wildly arbitrary and yet furiously important. This is a book that exposes how society constructs race: one plank laid down after another, nailed in by the surrounding crowd.
That those nails secure racial identity for everyone is one of the lessons ofJames McBride's memoir The Color of Water. McBride reminds us that passing isn't just for blacks, that many Americans buck the social fate assigned at birth. His mother--who, in their all-black section of Brooklyn, brushes off her children's questions about her origins and calls herself "light-skinned"--is a white woman who can't pass even to her 12 children. As a child, James McBride worries that the black-power movement will kill his mother, whitey right in their midst. He worries that she cries in church because God likes black people better. His mother has no time for his nonsense about color; when he asks whether God is black or white, she answers: "God is the color of water. Water doesn't have a color."
Eventually McBride does pry from his mother the story of her origins. Byalternating chapters between her childhood in the 1920s and 1930s and his own inthe 1960s, he unreels the story of how Ruth McBride Jordan started her life:Ruchel Shilsky had a brutal father who cheated the blacks who bought hisgroceries; a crippled and helpless mother; and a childhood in segregatedVirginia, where Jews weren't yet white. As a pregnant teen in 1936, she was sentto stay with New York City relatives, got an abortion, glimpsed freedom inHarlem, fell in love with a churchgoing black man, and was "reborn in Christ."When Ruchel became Ruth, she wholeheartedly emigrated into an all-black world; asa result, McBride had the advantage of growing up with a fairly coherent sense ofbelonging. He can therefore feel "privileged to have come from two worlds." Hewrites: "My view of the world is not merely that of a black man but that of ablack man with something of a Jewish soul... . When I see two little Jewish oldladies giggling over coffee at a Manhattan diner, it makes me smile, because Ihear my own mother's laughter beneath theirs." It's no wonder this lovely, lucidbook has been a hit.
Rebecca Walker's recent book Black, White, and Jewish moves the story forward from the 1940s to the early civil rights era of the 1960s. Walker's parents, as readers may know, are the author Alice Walker and the civil rights lawyer Mel Leventhal, who broke the law when they married in Mississippi in 1965. Their love was charged with the shiny political hope of the moment, the idealistic belief that race could be left behind. But alas, writes Walker: "With the rise of Black Power, my parents' interracial defiance, so in tune with the radicalism of Dr. King and civil rights, is suddenly suspect. Black-on-black love is the new recipe for revolution... . The only problem, of course, is me. My little copper-colored body that held so much promise and broke so many rules... . I am a remnant, a throwaway, a painful reminder of a happier and more optimistic but ultimately unsustainable time."
Her parents eventually divorce and make a horrifying custody decision: Rebeccawill spend two years with one parent, then two years with the other. Not herparents but she herself is the emigrant, tossed back and forth between socialspheres. "As I move from place to place, from Jewish to black, from D.C. to SanFrancisco, from status quo middle class to radical artist bohemia, it is likemoving from planet to planet between universes that never overlap." She developsthe chameleon habits of a forever-disrupted military kid, quickly observing andadapting to the local rules; perhaps as a result, she is especially good atnoting moments of dislocation and shame. An adored black uncle and his sons usethe word "cracker" to "describe me or one of my mannerisms ... even when I amgrown and doing things they think are strange or weird, things they think are notblack." Jewish relatives treat her as not quite one of them. Junior-high girls"threaten to beat me up for 'acting like a white girl.'" At a Jewish summer camp,she's called intimidating; later she wonders whether "intimidating might beanother word for black." In a black high school, when the races close ranks, sherejects her white best friend. In a predominantly Jewish high school where theblack kids seem poor, dirty, and angry, she tells a friend she's not black but"Spanish, like from Spain." Walker thus conveys the Erving Goffman sense thatracial identity--indeed, all identity--is a performance, that "white," "black,"or "Jewish" can be rehearsed and displayed through choices in music, clothes,makeup, gestures, and so on. In this sense all of us are passing, the mostsuccessful being those who feel the least slippage between inner experience andouter performance.
Is mixed-race identity in a black-and-white world always going tobe painful? Memoir may not be the most reliable genre from which to draw such aconclusion. Contemporary memoirists self-select for family unhappiness; most ofthese books are not exceptions. Scott Minerbrook's Divided to the Vein, a nearly unreadable screed, begins and ends as he's desperately forcing his way into the homes of dying white relatives who have repeatedly refused to meet him. At first it's hard to imagine why he could so crudely ignore their determined rejections or what he imagines he'll get from meeting these racists. Then we learn about his parents' unsettling marriage and his father's violent alcoholism. His childhood apparently left him so miserably numbed that he has a tin ear not just for his own emotions but for others'. As a result, he's searching in the wrong places for belonging--a search that is compelling to him, but not to a reader.
The trouble with Barack Obama's Dreams from My Father isn't unrelieved misery but unfocused meandering. He chronicles in too much detail his life's various chapters: a childhood with his white grandparents and mother in Hawaii; later childhood in Indonesia with a cynical Indonesian stepfather; a stint as a community organizer in poor black Chicago in the 1980s; and his eventual pursuit of the other families left by his Kenyan father, who appeared in Barack's life only briefly. Minerbrook's and Obama's books contain fatal flaws for memoir: no drama, boring writing.
And yet they make it especially clear that even when uncertain racial identityis blamed for unhappiness, misery may spring as much from parental alcoholism orabandonment as from race. In Claudine Chiawei O'Hearn's anthology Half andHalf, James McBride writes: "Maybe a black white man will never be content. Maybe a black white man will never fit." But that doesn't especially bother him. He belongs: "I never once in my life woke up not knowing whether I should eat matzo ball or fried chicken. I never once felt I'd be able to play the sax better if my mom had been black, or that I'd have been better at math if my father were Jewish. I like me, and I like me because my parents liked me."
Rebecca Walker has it exactly right: Racial identity is more powerful than theearly civil rights movement expected. That's true in part because it wasn't everreally about skin or hair but about dominance and belonging, affiliation andhatred. And belonging matters. If we have learned anything from our evolutionaryrelatives the primates, it's that we're hardwired to create groups, to foreverdistinguish between us and them, insiders and outsiders. Whether that's highschools with their ruthless sects, New York bouncers with entry lists and velvetropes, or southern states elaborating on increasingly bizarre miscegenationcodes, even the most irrational distinctions are violently urgent for folksliving inside them.
Malcolm Gladwell takes up the puzzle of belonging in his brilliant essay "Lostin the Middle," the other black/white piece in Half and Half. Gladwell tells us that his father is a British-born mathematics professor who is oddly blind to social boundaries; his mother is "not black, but brown," an important notch in the complex racial stratifications of her native Jamaica. While admiring them, Gladwell concludes with some melancholy:
I never feel my whiteness more than when I'm around WestIndians, and I never feel my West Indianness more than when I'm with whites... .My parents conquered difference, and we would all like to think that sort ofaccomplishment is something that could be passed down from generation togeneration. That's why we're all, in theory, so excited by the idea ofmiscegenation: because if we mix the races, presumably, we create a newgeneration of people to whom existing racial categories do not exist. I don'tthink it's that easy, though. If you mix black and white, you don't obliteratethose categories: you merely create a third category...Racial intermarriagesolves one problem in the first generation, only to create another in the next--ageneration that cannot ignore difference the way their parents did.
These writers would surely agree that their experience has not been freedomfrom race but perpetual taxonomic purgatory: repeatedly fielding the tiresomequestion (whether from inside or out), "What are you?"
But how these writers feel is only one question. The larger and perhaps moreimportant question is: Why have these books appeared in a burst now, after aneither/or century? These aren't the only entries in the color-blur category.Quite a number of authors are writing about American mixed-race families. Twowhite women who married and mothered across the color line, Jane Lazarre andHettie Jones, recently published memoirs about what Jones calls "being white in ablack family." Edward Ball's Slaves in the Family, Shirlee Taylor Haizlip's The Sweeter the Juice, and Neil Henry's just-published Pearl's Secret chronicle their authors' successful efforts to chase down relatives of the "other" color. Since 1998, the Jefferson-Hemings liaison has given birth to eight books. Anatole Broyard's twentieth-century passing is examined by Henry Louis Gates, Jr., and in a forthcoming book by Broyard's daughter. There's notable fiction like Philip Roth's The Human Stain, Colson Whitehead's TheIntuitionist, and Danzy Senna's Caucasia. There's research and scholarship on the way from such authors as Brent Staples and Harvard law professor Randall Kennedy, who is writing about interracial intimacy in American legal history.
Something new is simmering in American attitudes toward race--if not whilewe're policing the New Jersey Turnpike, at least while we're reading. Does allthis signal a new white willingness to face the horrors and offspring of slaveryas part of American history, the way Germans have grappled with the Holocaust?Are we ready to treat African as just one more drop in the mongrel mix ofAmerican identity? Has the 1980s and 1990s emphasis on multiculturalism anddiversity education actually changed how we rebuild race every day? We won't, ofcourse, find the answers merely in personal stories; but neither can personalstories be ignored. My father and his brother didn't speak for nearly 20 years, astory that was as much (or more) about family unhappiness as about race. Nowtheir children go to each other's weddings. Can a nation, too, outgrow its oldhatreds?
